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Big N, small y, big fuckin' Q
Nov. 5th, 2002 09:30 amThis weekend was crap. Either I'm aging rapidly or maturing gracefully, but I can't drink alcohol with the vigor I used to Freshman year. Those were some crazy times. Vomitting all over myself, peeing on the floor in my room, countless acts of stupidity. These days I just don't see the point. It feels like I get less drunk every time I drink. I don't believe my tolerance is getting higher. Technically my tolerance is getting lower because I just can't tolerate being drunk. Drinking alcohol just makes me feel like I'm becoming dumber by the minute and that I'm surrounded by the stupidest people alive.
But when all is said and done, this coming May, when I turn 21, I plan on drinking myself to death.
Until then, I'm going to look in the general direction of mind expansion to make me feel better. I need mushrooms or some GOOD acid. By GOOD acid, I mean acid that WORKS. Not some shitty scam from some redneck hippie who's pretending to be fucked up on the drug he's selling. I also want to try BETTER ecstasy, as in ecstasy that WORKS better. It may be a tolerance I have, because I've taken the same pills as others and had nothing happen. But I want something BETTER. More DANGEROUS. LIFE THREATENING.
I know I've said it countless times before, but I swear it, NyQuil is the best over-the-counter drug you can get. It's made from the best shit on crap. Anyone who says it doesn't make you sleepy or relaxed (Andy, I'm looking in your direction) is wrong wrong wrong. You just have to up the dosage. You can't live your life by someone else's rules, take three of those little medicine cup shots. Granted, my eyesight is a little off today, but I had such a great sleep last night. I had the strangest dream. And you were there...and you were there...and you...you I've never seen before.
I'm also trying to quit smoking cigarettes. A)They're expensive as an asshole, B)They make me shitty. Yesterday I only had about one cigarette. That is to say, I split two cigarettes with Andria. I have such a craving right now it's almost unbearable. I was tempted--I had my shoes on and my jacket on and my car keys in hand--before I started writing this, to buy a pack. The combination of 61% laziness and 1% will power helped me overcome the 49% craving. I haven't had the time to calculate a margin of error, but the fact is: my laziness is progressively getting lower and the cravings higher.
Right now it looks something like this:
79% craving
25% laziness
0.2% will power
43% bungholio
Fuck it. I need tobacco for my bunghole.
But when all is said and done, this coming May, when I turn 21, I plan on drinking myself to death.
Until then, I'm going to look in the general direction of mind expansion to make me feel better. I need mushrooms or some GOOD acid. By GOOD acid, I mean acid that WORKS. Not some shitty scam from some redneck hippie who's pretending to be fucked up on the drug he's selling. I also want to try BETTER ecstasy, as in ecstasy that WORKS better. It may be a tolerance I have, because I've taken the same pills as others and had nothing happen. But I want something BETTER. More DANGEROUS. LIFE THREATENING.
I know I've said it countless times before, but I swear it, NyQuil is the best over-the-counter drug you can get. It's made from the best shit on crap. Anyone who says it doesn't make you sleepy or relaxed (Andy, I'm looking in your direction) is wrong wrong wrong. You just have to up the dosage. You can't live your life by someone else's rules, take three of those little medicine cup shots. Granted, my eyesight is a little off today, but I had such a great sleep last night. I had the strangest dream. And you were there...and you were there...and you...you I've never seen before.
I'm also trying to quit smoking cigarettes. A)They're expensive as an asshole, B)They make me shitty. Yesterday I only had about one cigarette. That is to say, I split two cigarettes with Andria. I have such a craving right now it's almost unbearable. I was tempted--I had my shoes on and my jacket on and my car keys in hand--before I started writing this, to buy a pack. The combination of 61% laziness and 1% will power helped me overcome the 49% craving. I haven't had the time to calculate a margin of error, but the fact is: my laziness is progressively getting lower and the cravings higher.
Right now it looks something like this:
79% craving
25% laziness
0.2% will power
43% bungholio
Fuck it. I need tobacco for my bunghole.
