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Jun. 20th, 2007 04:48 pmI didn't get into grad school. I'm sorry. I tried pretty hard too.
I just wish I hadn't been so confident. Actually, fuck that, my confidence was totally excusable. I was plenty qualified enough, if not overqualified; I can't imagine what more they could have wanted from me. I really thought I had them, that things were turning up Shenoy.
What I really wish I hadn't been was so confident. If April 2007 taught me one thing, it's that self-confidence only lasts a few weeks and it can't keep other people from making horrible mistakes. If it taught me another, it's that if I don't do something great with my life, these folks will never learn.
It's hard not to sound pessimistic. And because I'm not at all pessimistic, but bitter and bewildered, I'm going to stop here, suffice it to say I'm not licked.
Not yet, anyway.
I just wish I hadn't been so confident. Actually, fuck that, my confidence was totally excusable. I was plenty qualified enough, if not overqualified; I can't imagine what more they could have wanted from me. I really thought I had them, that things were turning up Shenoy.
What I really wish I hadn't been was so confident. If April 2007 taught me one thing, it's that self-confidence only lasts a few weeks and it can't keep other people from making horrible mistakes. If it taught me another, it's that if I don't do something great with my life, these folks will never learn.
It's hard not to sound pessimistic. And because I'm not at all pessimistic, but bitter and bewildered, I'm going to stop here, suffice it to say I'm not licked.
Not yet, anyway.
