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oh jeez, why is phil belle so spastic? he's the most awkward person i know. i can't get over how out of place he is everywhere he goes. he came over to tony's house and we went to see memento. we missed the first 5 minutes of it, which pretty much ruined the whole movie for us. i have to see it again, it was rather intriguing.

this is weird. i said to myself today in the car on the way home from the deli "you haven't been depressed in a while." then i though, "yeah wow, i haven't." i think i jinxed it cause for some reason i have this sense of foreboding doom and a pointless future. fuck. the sooner it goes away, the better. i think it was just thinking about school and how dowd may not be coming back next year. i think maybe working did it to me to. tony has this theory that all tauruses (april 20-may 20) are lazy bastards. well bill's birthday is april 30. tony's is may 4, and mine is may 17 and we're all lazy fucking bums. i'm not superstitious at all and i don't give a fuck about horoscopes, so i think it's bull malarky. it is kinda funny how we were all born about the same time and are all lazy as shit. fancy that.

fuck i don't want to go to the deli tomorrow. i mean it's not hard work at all, and no matter how many times i'm gonna go there and realize it's not so bad, the next day i'm going to dread going. i dunno what it is with me. fuck work.

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does phil belle read my journal? i think he does.

people to steer clear of this summer:
booger smith
kenny acker
phil belle
sterny (but he owes me 10 bucks)
the usual gang of idiots

p.s. i got my gathering of the vibes ticket.

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the deli wasn't bad at all today. getting up for it was. i threw up this morning. i have no clue why. i've been kinda sick lately in the morning. when i puke, it's all digested material. it's like stomach acid and stuff. it's nasty. and it's always after i brush my teeth.

i made 4 deliveries today. i went totally out of the way of the first one, but i got there. i got a lousy buck 50. the other tips were like 2 and 3 bucks a piznop. the guys that work at the deli are pretty cool. eddie is really funny. i think he's high all the time. he brought his dog in today. a huge doberman. it was such a chill dog. it's probably a pothead too. yo killer, kill! yo killer, kill! i didn't get paid today, he said he'd get me tomorrow. i got a free pack of cigarettes though, which adds to my downward spiral of shameful bad habits. i also did some stocking today, besides delivery.

they have a huge walk-in fridge. it's the best place to chill. and i mean that as literally as possible. you can just go in there, take off your pants and let the low temperature do the rest. the dog liked it in there too. the dog also liked it when stared at it's genitals. i did it practically the whole time i was there.