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to tell the truth, things aren't going so well for me. i'm not always as happy as i seem. it's hard to write how i feel right now. i've been criticized for exaggerating my bad moods. well i'm going to list the things i'm thinking about right now.
1) bio test tomorrow- gonna do poorly
2) english paper thursday- haven't started, no clue what to write about
3) getting made fun of- i may be taking this to heart, but it seems like i'm getting jerked around more than usually
4) going home this weekend- i'll either be going home alone or with a complete stranger
5) motivation- i want it so badly
6) stereotypes against me- no i don't drink everyday
7) threats from people i don't even talk to- i think that's done with for now

fuck this, i'm going to bed

i need school to end. i need to head west this summer. i think there are some answers there.

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i met with the guy. the verdict: guilty. my sentence: 1 year disciplinary probation, 5 hrs community service. i'd rather not answer any questions regarding this sentence, just reporting the facts. i dunno, i'm pretty angry with the way things are going. the bio test wasn't too hard, i know i passed. at least i have that going for me. i was thinking of a whole slew of rants and banter to write in this entry but i don't care anymore. i'm going to eat, then go to the library. i'm going to be there all day. i don't really feel like talking to anyone today. no offense.

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i get criticized for being in a bad mood. i get criticized for downplaying my bad mood so that i won't get criticized. i get criticized today for "not thinking." i guess i'm a fucking jerk.

i went to the library today and i was there for about 2 hrs. i got what i need for the paper due thursday and i might even finish writing it tonight. i'm going back to the library after dinner. write a witty comment for this one, i could use some criticism.